the end where is that car park where no one ever parks we came down and Marcia said oh it's up here

I have a bingo no bingo road I forgot the name of the street oh thank you for that that's where

Veronica lives and then I said all right and then Marcia was like should we stop by and say hello

I said yeah right and then you want you want Jessica to change her mind and come home

we walked 20 meters and the phone starts ringing you jinxed it Veronica hi Marcia I'm so sorry

Olivia's having a meltdown but at the same time I was like oh yes okay Jessica I don't know because

I'm not used to not having Jessica I was I was actually afraid that I might not be able to sleep

because she's not next to me so I started to I started to overthink I started to

sorry

so I started to overthink and I said to Marcia I think I'm gonna be the one who's not gonna be

able to sleep if anything and Marcia said no you'll be fine and no so so then Veronica called

me I was like yeah I'm coming I'm coming we are around the corner and she goes oh what do you

mean I said we actually came for a for a walk and we just walked past your street and we were

actually saying oh how about we go and say hello or good night or something and then he called us

a few minutes later

you

But honestly Jessica has exactly the same meltdown so we didn't stick out we just took Jessica and we left

because you could tell that Olivia was stressed.

But definitely the same meltdown we said...

It was a very happy meltdown.

That's when we saw the tablet.

But every once a month I don't know I can't recall how many times but she would have.

And like and then I went on and then you know you just, do you come to, do you see the girls?

Because of how I treat her, it's like she could go forever, it feels like.

I mean, I know it goes to us longer than it is,

but it could be like 10 minutes, 15, whatever.

Maybe until I get her a couple.

But I get angry, or I get angry, and then she loses it.

It's usually whatever.

Hungry, tired, I don't know.

It's at the end of the day normally, and it's just me and her.

I'm always better if Ben is around or somebody else.

I don't overreact, ever.

But if it's just me and her, I'm on my self, I guess.

And I tend to overreact as well.

So she's like, she used to move really badly.

I can't explain to you the screaming, the shouting, the standing feet and everything.

But I just told her, don't give in, I just go to a different room.

And sometimes I even lock myself in the bathroom and she'll start banging on the door.

Like that.

Seriously, that's been happening maybe a couple, a handful of times.

I can't tell how many times, but it used to happen still.

Since all this has happened, New Year and all that,

I just would never ever have a tantrum or anything.

She'll get upset.

I'll cuddle her.

I'll talk to her.

She has sense in her.

It's just so different.

It's unreal to me.

This is what I mean.

It's amazing how much it affects.

And for us now, it's like...

I mean, I don't know, I don't feel like, you know, like I have a...

She's just another member, but I don't think I don't see that she's like another member of the family now.

Like, you know, like, we sit here, we have conversations.

She likes to know, learn about the news.

It's a bit, it gets a bit like last night.

He wanted to watch Girl, I'll Go From This Way.

And she was a bit tired before we did this, and she didn't.

So I spent the time with her.

So we can meet.

But it's nothing like, you know, there's no tantrums is the first thing.

No meltdown.

She doesn't ever get that, that she looks like overwhelmed like that.

And I really think most people do that as well.

I mean, TV.

With the TV?

She never watches.

Even today, she'll mention it once or twice.

But she forgets very quickly and gets the...

It's always a surprise, which is, like, she forgot about it earlier.

Like, she was over there.

You see, just when they're upset, they do it much better.

Because it's not, they don't have that stimulation.

They don't have that instant thing, you know, that you always expect something like that.

And they become so much more patient and gentle.

So, yeah, I just, I love it.

The only thing is, I said, come on, I'll show the other, let me talk.

Do you know, they, they need to know things.