I want Jessica to do well, but also, I used to always be top, extracurricular activity.

Yeah, me too. I was always the best.

And my teacher was nearly three times more than me, and he could barely make it to school.

So when I realized that, I said, you know something?

I just want Redusa to be confident and happy, and I feel like she's building some really long, really strong life skills.

She already knows how to manipulate me, and she's only five years old.

She always did. She always did.

It was always great.

I only got out to manipulate you.

I didn't think when I was five years old I'd come to manipulate.

So, are you okay?

I've lost my phone, and I just realized I haven't seen it all day since we got down here.

I didn't see it. I didn't even touch it.

I don't know what I've done with it.

It's not from today. I just brought it here.

Should I call you?

Yes, please.

It's mine.

If I find mine.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

So, yeah.

Yeah.

Well.

Maybe.

And also, with girls, it's different.

Like, we were saying earlier on, man is playing the ball dance like it used to be with me.

I had.

I was very good.

I just realized the only thing that I learned is how to obey and not follow orders.

And much because he wasn't forced to do that.

He learned how to think on his feet, how to make decisions without them.

He wasn't trying on anyone and so on.

So he developed better life skills.

You know, so I feel like even at work, I'm waiting to be told or do a move to be able to go ahead.

Even though I know exactly what I have to do.

It's because I was trained at home because of my dad.

He was trained as well.

And, you know, he was always expected of the girls to behave and to drink with the brains.

And it doesn't take that long.

Yeah.

You know.

It's one.

I remember having this conversation.

I think Julie wasn't older than me.

Julie was such a happy, you know, full of life child.

Even like loud with her.

I don't remember when she started to show.

And we were like, we don't want you to feel.

That's my book.

Yeah, I'm going to keep it.

Because it involves my life now.

And he was like, we don't want to compromise our personality.

Because I feel like.

I was so conditioned that I was a child like that.

That was completely like cutting to ourselves.

You know, I couldn't say anything.

Top of class.

I had to be, you know, top of class.

But always very like if someone asked me something, I would be like.

You know.

And I was always like.

And that's it.

And I do that to this day.

Like I know things I have to do.

You know.

I know what should be done at least.

And I have that freedom to resolve them.

I always call my eye on that.

What do you think?

I'm trying to do this.

What do you think?

Is it good?

Is it not going?

I'm excited.

And I feel bad sometimes.

I feel like I'm not doing good in my job.

Why?

Because I always keep looking.

I'm always afraid I'm going to do something wrong.

But.

We always have like.

We didn't want to.

We prefer less well-behaved child.

That's more free.

To show ourself.

To be ourself.

And.

Like I said.

I feel like.

Like my eye was open.

Because it was terrible.

You know.

ADHD.

Like stuff to eat.

Or like.

What do you have to admit.

But.

I feel like.

You know.

I'll be fine if I'm free.

She wants a big box to put herself in.

Do you want to have another big box then?

Between them.

Yeah.

Yeah.

But that's.

You see.

I feel like.

Jessica can be so bossy.

To the point that.

She can you know.

Hurt someone else's feelings.

But it's for you.

Cause you're not really free.

I don't know.

I don't think.

I don't care.

And you.

Uh huh.

Or.

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know.