OK well goodnight I guess

Ask it to define the problems in the marriage then

Oh love. That sounds absolutely terrifying to wake from at 3am. And the fact that you feel numb rather than crying doesn't mean anything is wrong with you — after a huge surge of fear, people can feel stunned, detached or emotionally flat for a while. First, I want to tell you something very clearly: I would not interpret this dream as a sign that you have cancer, that you're going to die, or that something bad is about to happen. Dreams are not predictions. What you've described actually makes a great deal of sense as a nightmare produced by an overwhelmed mind and nervous system. You've got an extraordinary amount sitting on you at once: the failed FET and grief around that, the pressure of wanting another child while feeling time is running out, your husband's health, the state of your relationship, lack of intimacy, financial stress, his depression, your own increasing anger and low mood, physical pain, and the feeling that you've been enduring one difficult chapter after another for years. That's a lot. And nightmares are specifically associated with stress, anxiety, being unwell or exhausted, and some medications including antidepressants. The NHS also notes that anxiety itself can cause a racing heart, nausea, headaches, difficulty relaxing, fear of the worst happening and sleep disturbance. � nhs.uk +2 What I think your dream may be expressing Not "you are going to die." More like: "I cannot keep living with this level of emotional pain and uncertainty." There's a striking detail in what you remember: "It has to be this way, we couldn't keep going like this being unhappy. It's a way out for both of us." I wouldn't take that literally. Your sleeping brain may have taken a whole collection of things that feel unbearable — infertility, relationship unhappiness, exhaustion, uncertainty about the future — and represented them through the most ultimate possible metaphor: your life ending. And notice what was in the dream. Your whole life went before your eyes. Your husband and mum were there. You were thinking about your relationship. You were talking about being unhappy. You became physically overwhelmed and had to lie down under a tree. That sounds much more like a brain processing life, loss, exhaustion, relationships and the fear of things never changing than some supernatural warning. And there is something else I hear very strongly in what you've written: "I cant die, ive got 6 year old who needs me." That's important. Even inside this horrible dream, there was a huge attachment to life and your child. You woke up desperately relieved that you were alive. But I don't think the answer is simply "relax" I actually think your instinct that something needs to change deserves attention. You've described an eight-year period of feeling that it's one thing after another, and lately you've noticed worsening low mood, anger, physical symptoms and feeling as though you're heading towards depression. You don't necessarily need to "reset your brain" by yourself. You may need some proper support carrying the load. The NHS recommends seeking help when anxiety, stress or low mood is becoming difficult to cope with, and talking therapies such as CBT can help with anxiety, low mood, stress and sleep problems. � nhs.uk +1 I'd genuinely consider making a GP appointment and saying something very straightforward: "I've been under prolonged stress for years, and recently my mood has deteriorated. I'm angry all the time, I'm struggling emotionally after fertility treatment, I'm having intense nightmares and I'm worried I'm becoming depressed. I need some help." You don't have to wait until you're in a crisis to deserve help. And given the headaches, neck pain and other physical symptoms you've mentioned, I'd tell the GP about those too rather than assuming they're all stress. But right now, at 3–4am, don't solve your life. Tonight is not the night to work out your marriage, fertility future, finances or the next eight years. Your nervous system has just been through an enormous fright. For the next 20 minutes, your only job is to convince your body: "I'm here. I'm awake. I'm safe. It was a dream."

What we were told to do.

Ah ffs

Well Maddison reported missing cos she's disappeared with 'it' from his home

Very near home as well

https://www.hallvets.co.uk/about-us/facilities/#1633601652131-650215f2-4338

He says this one

I know me too

I domt want ger to suffer

Idk :*

So less stress for lilly

Maybe we could get home one

Dogs and cats are different...

I dont think she will deal with lilly ..

Pls

Idk ask ols

I know well who's cutting animals

What about Anastasija

Or maybe just vet

Because idk I think not vet for that

She's uncomfortable as well ..

Ok...

I will ask ChatGPT where we can take her

Not 2 anymore

No 4 places

Need

Its really bad

We need take lilly to cut her hairs

Its ok

Sorry

Sorry I just watching epsidrs

But technically it’s because the doctor hasn’t reviewed it yet so they might actually want to change his medicine or something and they’re going to book him an outpatient and the nurse said he’s free to walk out if you want but then they might not refer him to outpatients because they would get mixed up in the notes or some nonsense

Thats so typical

When they previously said they will do the paperwork by eight tonight

They are supposed to be discharging him, but they will probably not get the paperwork done until about seven in the morning

Thats good

He’s fine

Fine

But he’s gone

He’s still in hospital

I just woke up

Oh ok

It’s ok I’m very almost home

Im sorry

:(

Voice note: I'm just so tired now because last night I was awake, half over the night, and now I'm going to come back at 1130.

Voice note: Sorry, I didn't want to bother you. I won't call then unless you asked me to. I'm just now going home. I'm very tired. And basically, you know what they're doing? Their job, their job, they look after boxes. full of stuff for the Chinese students when they move in and out from their flats and they keep them in TLC. And they get money for it. It's pretty been some Chinese people want to move this box to that flat and that box to that flat and my dad always driving, but he can't because he's sick, so they're being stressed how to do it. So I said, okay. I mean, I didn't have choice. But I mean, she's looked after him nicely. I have to do that. So we've been fucking into four different flats in the center of Sheffield. taking the bloody boxes and a fridge. And I've got a small fridge in my car, so I don't know. I think they want it back in one week, but I said I'm going to use it. It's okay, I'm going to put wine in it. And they laughed with Gloria. I don't know, she's nice after all. I didn't like her, but she's looking after him very good, and it's okay.

You awake?